I really wish I could make myself cry.  I'd feel so much better.  I can't help it... keeping things inside all bottled up.  I'm just waiting for something or possibly someone to help me cry already.  [Sighs].  I just realized that listening to old, slow love songs don't help me any.  I really wish I could make myself cry.  Ok I'll admit I tried making myself cry once or twice in my whole entire life.  But naturally, I've learned that I dont feel the same satisfaction afterwards.  Haha.. and it'd only last for like 2-3 minutes then I'd get all dry.  [Sighs].  Damn all I want is a good cry.  LoL.  Really, don't worry about me.  I mean its not like I'm going to go kill myself or do something stupid.  I'm just so fucking tired... of almost everything.  Crying would be an excellent escape.  But otherwise, I'm still going.. with small amounts of enthusiasm now and then.  But yeah I'm fine.  I'm fine.  I assure you, just because I want to cry, doesn't not necessarily mean I'm not fine.